Her lips are an ointment for my torn soul. Her heart beat against my chest is like a hammer chipping away at the stone that has formed around my heart. I want to love you but I've forgotten how. Her eyes are an ocean and I can't help but drown. That's all I'll ever be..the one that you could have saved.
We're star crossed lovers by choice because I can't let you in. To let you in would be a betrayal to the persona that I've forged when you're with me. I don't want you to see me because when your lips touch mine the fire that burns inside hurts. It hurts because I want you more than a junkie with a needle that's just gone dry, more than the man stuck under water needing that last gasp of air, more than a fire before it turns to dust.
In all of this I realize it's not you that I want...I realize that's it's you that I need. We are two souls intertwined sharing this moment of completeness. I'm saturated in your essence and I don't want to leave. When the sun comes up I won't be there anymore. I won't be there because I know you need someone that can give you what you give me. We were a shooting star that was destined to burn out. You were my last breath. When you wake up the fire of what we had will be gone and there will be nothing left but the ash of the flames once passed....
Friday, 9 March 2012
Mass vs...
As introverted as I may be I still enjoy, on occasion, being surrounded by the seething masses of humanity. It's not entirely about socializing or even making new acquaintances. I just love seeing massive groups of people interacting with each other. There's just something almost magical about seeing people interact with each other. It varies form the types of people to the types of interactions that are taking place.
When I was younger it was seen as being more or less an outcast to be sitting by yourself watching people, but as I've grown I can be extremely content just sitting by the bar with a drink in hand watching people talk to each other. I believe myself to be quite a people person in terms of seeing peoples intentions through their interactions.
The guy standing by the bar that accidentally fell into the friend zone, now he's watching the girl that he used to crush on crush on all the other guys walking around like peacocks with their feathers bumping everybody in their way.
It's like my little experience as a voyeur watching life unfold in front of me and I love it. If I could bottle the experience and keep it for later when I need a muse I would but it's a feeling that fades like a fleeting thought. In the end that's all we can really keep. The memory of a fleeting experience that was once ours to enjoy.
Excuse me, Bar wench, may I have two helpings of thine seething masses of humanity please?
When I was younger it was seen as being more or less an outcast to be sitting by yourself watching people, but as I've grown I can be extremely content just sitting by the bar with a drink in hand watching people talk to each other. I believe myself to be quite a people person in terms of seeing peoples intentions through their interactions.
The guy standing by the bar that accidentally fell into the friend zone, now he's watching the girl that he used to crush on crush on all the other guys walking around like peacocks with their feathers bumping everybody in their way.
It's like my little experience as a voyeur watching life unfold in front of me and I love it. If I could bottle the experience and keep it for later when I need a muse I would but it's a feeling that fades like a fleeting thought. In the end that's all we can really keep. The memory of a fleeting experience that was once ours to enjoy.
Excuse me, Bar wench, may I have two helpings of thine seething masses of humanity please?
Commit
The other day while having my daily session of sitting back and thinking about absolute nonsense a thought threw itself directly into my walkway and I went stumbling into a thorn bush of epiphanies. At that moment I was epiphanising...also I decided to make up a new, although unnecessary, word for it.
Epihanising is when two or more epiphanies collide to create a bigger and better epiphany.
Anyway, I've been going through that time in life that every young adult eventually goes through. I was trying to figure out what exactly I wanted to do with my life. The problem in my case was not that I didn't have options to choose from but rather I was scared of choosing the wrong one. I've seen way too many movies where the lead character is suddenly 50 years old and they realize that they hate their life. So my problem was I didn't want to pick the wrong career and suddenly realize I've wasted my life doing the wrong thing.
Then like wet frog jumping on my face while in the shower, it hit me. If you spend your life looking for perfect all the time you often miss out on a whole host of good things. Often what you need to do is take that good situation and nurture it with the same love and care that you would have given to that supposed perfect scenario. In time your good situation will become your perfect scenario. This isn't only for working situations but all situations of life. I'm not saying you shouldn't want the best but what I am saying is don't be so tirelessly consumed by finding the best that you miss out on everything good.
Make the best out of a good situation
Epihanising is when two or more epiphanies collide to create a bigger and better epiphany.
Anyway, I've been going through that time in life that every young adult eventually goes through. I was trying to figure out what exactly I wanted to do with my life. The problem in my case was not that I didn't have options to choose from but rather I was scared of choosing the wrong one. I've seen way too many movies where the lead character is suddenly 50 years old and they realize that they hate their life. So my problem was I didn't want to pick the wrong career and suddenly realize I've wasted my life doing the wrong thing.
Then like wet frog jumping on my face while in the shower, it hit me. If you spend your life looking for perfect all the time you often miss out on a whole host of good things. Often what you need to do is take that good situation and nurture it with the same love and care that you would have given to that supposed perfect scenario. In time your good situation will become your perfect scenario. This isn't only for working situations but all situations of life. I'm not saying you shouldn't want the best but what I am saying is don't be so tirelessly consumed by finding the best that you miss out on everything good.
Make the best out of a good situation
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